I have been thinking a lot about my purpose here on earth lately. I know I am called to be a mother and a wife but what does God truly want from me?
It's so easy to get disillusioned in this life and grow weary in what he has called me to do. I can start to think I am missing out on something. The world and satan are always throwing out hints that just being a mom and a wife isn't enough. I should be making money, having a career, earning a degree, being independent, etc, etc.
I am not just a mom though...I am a daughter of God created to worship and love him first and foremost.
We all are God's creation and no matter our position in life, knowing and loving Jesus is the #1 purpose he created us for.
I love how Paul puts it:
"But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ- the righteousness that comes from Christ and is by faith." Philppians 3:7-9
Nothing compares to knowing Jesus!!!
Even in the mom world we can listen to what our peers are saying and think that we have to make perfect food, run a perfect home and parent perfectly in order to make us feel that we are fulfilling our mom and wife duties and pleasing God.
Yes, I want to be faithful with what God has given me, take care of my family the best that I can; I know this brings him honor and glory.
I have to say it feels good to have a clean home, obedient children and good food on the table. I would be remiss though if I said cleaning, making nutritious meals, caring for my children and husband fulfill the deepest parts of my being. They bring me such joy and there is nothing else I would rather be doing( though at times I might want a day off)but I can not rest all my hopes and dreams on them, even though they are good things.
If I am just focusing on being the perfect mom and wife I will be neglecting my first and highest call... to love and to be loved by Jesus. If I am not seeking God first there is no way that I can even begin to be anything. Jesus must be my all and from him everything else must flow.
"All my fountains are in you" Psalms 87:7
Being the best mom, wife, friend, blogger,church goer, daughter, sister, coworker, teacher... will never fulfill me...only Jesus will. There is nothing I could ever do that would fulfill me like knowing, loving and being loved by Jesus.
We spend so much time comparing ourselves to other moms and people in our lives that we think have it all together. We were never meant to compare ourselves to each other... but to Christ. I am so thankful for the people he has put in my life to spur me on and inspire me to be a better mom, housekeeper and wife; to the internet which has opened up a whole world of other moms from which to glean recipes, creative ideas and encouragement, but what is most important is that I know what God has called me to and not feel guilty or unfulfilled if I am not doing what others around me are called to do.
What matters most and will only truly fulfill us is being obedient to what God has called us to do. How can we do this you say?? How do we know his will?? By seeking him first!
"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33
If we are seeking him first I believe everything in our life will fall into the right place. When I am seeking my own will first or trying to live to please others that's when my life gets out of wack, everything is out of order and I find myself dissatisfied and unfulfilled. But when I am making him my priority, seeking him first; I find I am a better mom, wife and person for it.
Everything in out lives work best when we put them in this order:
I have been meditating on this song by Matt Redman a lot, It has encouraged me and reminded me that Jesus, Only Jesus can save me from my sins and give me a hope and a future!!
Jesus, only Jesus is the one I will stand before when I die and account for my life,he is the only one who can fulfill me and give purpose and meaning to my life, he is the only one who can heal and restore my hurts and my past, he is the only one worthy of my life and my praise.