Seeing homemaking as a labor of love instead of drudgery- With FREE PRINTABLE!

Saturday, July 23, 2016


There is a view in our society that is catching fire.

It is a view that sees homemaking/housework/motherhood as drudgery. (Drudgery: boring, difficult or unpleasant work. )

I should know because I often add my approval and voice to this view.

Before I was married I dreamed about the day when I would have a husband and children to do laundry, make meals for and a home to decorate and clean.

Little did I know how those dreams would come back to haunt me!

Not only do I have all of these, but they are neverending!

I do about 2-3 loads of laundry every day!

I cook 2-3 meals a day and clean in between... constantly.

I clean and clean and clean and my house does not look magazine worthy; just liveable!

Now that all my dreams have come true I complain most every day about them.

Why can't I go 20 minutes without cleaning up a mess? 

Why do my children hurt themselves every 10 seconds!? 

Why do we have so many dirty clothes???

Why do my children destroy everything they touch!!? 

I definately go through seasons of absolutely loving caring for my home and family and then seasons of despising it. I will often do anything I can to avoid doing dishes or making dinner and other times I just thrive in it. I have times when I will be on top of everything and everyone making sure not a crumb is spilled and a  toy out of place. I can get a little OCD at times. Though I love a clean house, I know it's not worth getting all bent out of shape about, even though I often do.

Then there are seasons when I get disillusioned and just try to get by with what I can, wondering to myself, "Why even try, it's just going to go back to the way it was?" When I get in a funk of thinking what is the purpose of it all, I start to view homemaking as drudgery. I get bogged down with thoughts that I am really not doing anything important or of worth. I start to think of my days as insignificant as a stay at home mom, if all I did was clean, cook, do laundry and supervise my children. Nothing spectacular there.  I give into the lies that I didn't really accomplish anything of worth.

Deep down in my heart I know that this is so not true.

Even if I all you and I did was feed our children, clean and keep the peace, we have done an amazing job that is vital to our family's well being...that only you and I can do as our husband's wife and our children's mother. 

The thing is that I need God to constantly work on my heart and help change my perspective to see the job I have been given as one of great value and worth. I need him to give me a cheerful and giving heart in serving my family; desiring to do it as unto him. This is the difference... doing it as unto him!

When we are reminded that our lives and our families are not our own, that he has given us this wonderful and most important of positions; our perspective changes and we can see homemaking as a labor of love instead of drudgery.

I love this quote by Harold B. Lee. It really helps to remind me that I am doing a very important work. A work that no one else besides God and my family might see. A work that is vital not only to the foundation of my family but of the whole of society.


I love my family so much! Even though I desperately need time away from them sometimes, I still always can't wait to get back to them. They are the ones that I truly want to be with the most. Yes, they are a lot of work but I would so much rather take care of them then be out in the world taking care of someone else's children or doing a job that would take me away from my husband and them.

It's sad that we often think that it's only when we are serving outside the home that we are being used and doing an important work. I know that everyone is in different seasons and situations then I am in, but whatever our jobs are... as mothers, our families should be our priority as we seek God 1st. #preachingtomyself If you are doing a job outside the home, know that I am not trying to downplay that. If you are in God's will then there is no better place to be. But if God has called you to be home then he will make a way and give you joy in it!

When I start to listen to God's voice instead of the world's and thrive where he has put me, I delight in serving my family. As I am obedient to his calling on my life and cherish the season I am in, I start to see keeping the house liveable, clothes cleaned, dishes washed, children trained and loved, husband admired and respected as my highest calling. Not only does it become fulfilling, but it affects everyone in my family. When all I do is complain to my husband and children they will start to feel insignificant, like they aren't worth my time and effort.

We as mothers and wives need to set the example in our home. How can we expect our husband to want to come home if all he will hear from us is complaining?  How can we expect our children to do their chores without complaining if that is all they hear us do?

Of course there are those days when we have just had a hard time putting anything on the table and keeping the house looking decent and we need to vent  and give ourselves grace, and that's okay.
But when we do take the time and effort to make our homes presentable, to prepare good meals for our family with a good attitude; our husband and children will notice and appreciate our hard work and give us praise better than any worldly achievement or acknowledgement!

I don't know about you but I am tired of being tired of housework. I want God to change my heart. I want him to give me joy in being faithful with the little. I know that this will be a continuous work and that I will go through many different seasons, but this is my prayer: to see homemaking as a labor of love to the ones that I cherish the most.

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How about you? Do you struggle with taking care of your home and family with joy?

Do you often feel like you didn't do anything of worth during the day?

Do you find yourself having a bad attitude towards homemaking?

Do you feel like you are only doing something of value when it's outside your home?

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18 week bump update

Thursday, July 14, 2016

I can't tell you how relieved I am to be here at 18 weeks!!

Like I have shared in my first trimester update I have been stepping on eggshells through this pregnancy after my miscarriage last year.

By God's grace this has been one of my best pregnancies. Despite tiring easily( though that's nothing new) and feeling unmotivated, I have been feeling so good. Really, no complaints! I hardly had any nausea in the first trimester and don't feel as hungry as I did at first. I have gained about 18 lbs already. I always gain a lot in the first trimester. It's just how it is. But if you consider a lb for each week, I guess that's okay. I usually even out in the end somehow.






Someone told me the other day that I looked like I was having twins when they knew I wasn't. Arrghhh..;( I had to try really hard not to hold a grudge against them and forgive them. I have always struggled with gaining weight during pregnancy. I really don't like it, but I have really embraced this pregnancy and have been so excited that there is a little life growing inside of me. I am still sensitive about it my growing body though and no pregnant woman wants to hear that she looks like she is carrying twins when she is not. So be warned!

I started feeling the baby move around 16 weeks and love feeling it's little kicks and movements. I have been actually been sleeping really good now. Yay!!! No more insomnia!! At least for now. If we go out to the beach or somewhere I am usually done for the rest of the day. If it was a tiring morning I usually can't function and have to take a nap in the afternoon and am still able to sleep at night.

I am starting to want coffee again. Woo hoo!!! I still can survive without it but there is just something about a nice cup of coffee in the morning to get you going. Especially since I don't get up early anymore and I wake up all groggy. I'm looking forward to more coffee dates now with my friends!

I still can't go too long without food in my stomach and have been wanting sweets more of late which I never did with most of my pregnancies. I have been really good about not drinking a lot of soda this pregnancy. Normally I hardly ever drink soda but during pregnancy I always crave it. But this time around I haven't been really craving it:) I have been trying to guzzle down water. I have found that I drink way more when I have a straw. I know it sounds silly but for some reason it works. So I got one of those plastic cups with the built in straw.

I have still been trying to work out regularly but it's been hard. I am so used to working out early in the morning and now that I have been sleeping in it's harder to get to it during the day. We have been especially busy with family in town so it's been hard to do it but I have forced myself these past few days to fit it in and I always feel so good when I do.

My sonogram is scheduled for 2 weeks!!! I have tried a couple times to wait till birth to find out the gender but I just haven't been able to. It's just so hard when you are there and they can tell you. And this time we are so anxious to know. We have 4 boys and 1 girl smack dab in the middle and would love another girl. I  know she will be fine without a sister but I would so love for her to have one. I know I love having a sister and I just picture doing things with her and another daughter as they grow up. I doubt my boys will call me up and say, "Hey mom, you want to get together?" Maybe but I know sisters are so special. I am so thankful for my sister and all the wonderful sister in laws I have been blessed with. They are some of my best friends! Ellie has some girl cousins her age so I know she will be okay but still. And girl stuff is just so stinkin cute!!!

I have never had mothers intuition. I am always wrong so even though I am hoping for a girl I am not even going to try and predict what we are having.

Anyways it's not in my hands and I am glad God is in control. I trust his choice for us! He has already determined who this little person will be and know he has the best plans for him/her!


Anybody have any guesses as to what I'm having? 

What's the worse thing someone has said to you when you were pregnant?

Do you find out what you are having or wait till the end? 

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Life is Beautiful book review

Sunday, July 10, 2016

                   I was given a copy of Sarah's book in return for my honest opinion and review.

Life is never what we plan or expect it to be.

There is a lot of pain, sorrow, unexpected twists and turns that we could never anticipate.

We imagine and plan out what we would like our lives to be like but in reality our perfect plans are far from perfect.

Though we think a life free from worry, pain and sorrow would be great it is just not possible in the fallen world we live in. We would never plan for tragedy to strike our lives yet it often does. God is able to take hard and tragic circumstances and make them beautiful.

In Sarah M. Johnson's book, she shares just that; how God took her broken and tragic life, redeemed it and made it beautiful.

Her book starts out with the pivotal event of a plane crash in the jungles of the Guatamala. Sarah's family was on a mission trip together; she, her mother, father and brother. Sarah giftedly writes of the trauma that ensues as she tries to save her mother after realizing her brother and father are already dead.

Prior to the plane crash her family was very dysfunctional. Her father had been hiding his drug addiction of smoking meth. After his arrest and release from jail he has to go through rehabilitation and gain back his family's respect and trust. Though her father tries to rebuild their relationship Sarah struggles to let him back in her life. She is hurting and seeking for something to fill the loneliness and pain and turns to partying and drinking. Her brother Zach is a constant source of comfort and true friendship through all of the Sarah's ups and downs. She always turns to him and he always speaks the truth to her even though she doesn't listen or want to hear it.

As her father finds his way again and tries to rebuild his family and opportunity opens up for them to go to guatemala on a mission trip which he hopes will restore some unity with his family as they all serve together.

Sarah deftly goes back and forth between the plane crash and the events that led up to her family going on the mission trip. In amazing detail she tells the story of her initial shock and pain from the plane crash. All the crazy emotions and trials she had to endure in a foreign country. Now back in the states she is left alone as her mother is in critical condition from her burns. She ends up going to college and finds herself on a destructive path of drinking and partying.

She meets a guy who shares with her about God and the Bible but definitely does not live out a life of faith. She is intrigued and goes on her own search for God. She knows she can't go on as she is any more and seeks professional help. Her therapist helps her work out all the pain of her dad and brother's death that she has been burying down deep inside of her.

I can relate in part to Sarah's story as I lost my Dad to cancer when I was 14. I had to deal with a lot of hard things before and after his death that I would have never foreseen for my life. Through it all though I have seen how God does work all things together for good to those who love him and are called according to his purpose( Romans 8:28 paraphrased) He turns ashes into beauty ( Isaiah 61:3)

Though Sarah shares about her faith I was disappointed that she didn't use the opportunity to go into deeper depth of how God comforted her and gave her hope and meaning or shared some scripture that really spoke to her. I felt like she was kind of vague about it. She talks about God a lot as her higher power but I took away from the book the sense that she tried to pull herself out of her addiction and sorrow by herself and talks a lot about being a "better person" when we are all sinners in need of God's grace and redemption.

Granted I did not go through anything like she did but I know that it is only by Jesus working through us that we can do anything. We are strongest when we admit our weaknesses and allow him to use us despite them. She shares about how her therapist says she was strong enough to do it on her own. I guess this just confused me because I have never found that I can do anything in my own strength. Again I may have misunderstand her use of wording and phrases.

Over all I know so many will be able to relate to Sarah's story of finding hope and healing after tragedy and the unthinkable. I love that she wants to use her story to encourage others that life can be beautiful despite life's hard circumstances.

Though Sarah's story was so sad to read it was also a very easy book to read as she is a very good writer and takes you right to that moment in time and gives you a clear picture that she paints with her gift of writing.

I would love to write the story of my Father's death and how God used it to bring me closer to him and experience the comfort that only Christ can give as he relates to our sufferings here on earth. Sarah's story definitely inspired me to not give up on that desire.

 I hope you will be inspired also by Reading Life is Beautiful to find hope and healing to become who God has called you to be and take the hard that you have experienced and allow God to turn it into something beautiful and good.



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Inspiring and encouraging christian books for every woman

Thursday, July 7, 2016


I love to read!

If I had more time I would be devouring books every day.

As it is I am thankful for the books that I am able to find time to read. Since I don't have a lot of time I really try to read books that will be edifying to me in my walk with the Lord and encourage me as a wife, mother, homemaker and homeschooler. I can use all the help I can get and love gleaning wisdom and encouragement from those who have blazed a path before me.

The summer is a great time for me to read some of those books that I have had on my list for a while to get to. I usually get out with my brood in the mornings and then try to have quiet afternoons at home; catching up with housework, taking a nap or snuggled up reading.

I have compiled a list of books; some of which I have read and some that I want to read that I hope will inspire and encourage you this summer in your walk with the Lord, as a wife, mother, homemaker and homeschooler.

I hope you find a book that speaks to you and keeps bringing you back to it for words of truth, life, inspiration and encouragment!

Please head over to My Joy Filled life to read the whole list and post!!!

Have you read any of the books on my list?

What books have you read this year or are reading now that you would reccomend??
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Exercising during pregnancy/ tips and modifications

Sunday, July 3, 2016


Disclaimer: Please, please talk to your health care professional before attempting any kind of exercise during pregnancy. I am only a mama that likes to exercise and am sharing from my own experience of exercising during my own pregnancies and what my midwives and doctors have informed me of. 

One of the hardest things for me about being pregnant has been not being able to exercise like I usually do and gaining weight. I know it's silly but these are the things I have struggled with.

Exercising has not only been a way for me to stay in shape but has been so good for my state of mind.

Now on my 6th pregnancy I am coming to terms with my changing body and learning how to still exercise while embracing my growing body. I have always been driven to excel in running and working out and have found my groove now in letting go of my competitive side during pregnancy yet still making time for myself to exercise in moderation.

If you are pregnant and wondering if you can still exercise I hope to answer some of your questions. Remember I am not a healthcare professional or fitness expert. ;)

Can you exercise/lift weights/ run during pregnancy??

When you find out you are pregnant your Doctor or midwife will usually tell you that you can safely exercise if you have already been maintaining a workout routine. If you haven't been doing any kind of exercise before pregnancy it's probably best not to start lifting weights and going running now. ;P Your heart and your body will not be used to it. Walking, swimming or light workouts would probably be the best thing.

Because I have had a routine of working out regularly up until pregnancy my midwives have always given me the clear to keep up with my workouts and running. In terms of lifting weights, 20 lbs is always the maximum for pregnancy. I have 2 10 lb. weights that I have been using and have continued to use but never go above that. There are some crazy body builder women who lift more then that but I am sure they had to get approval from their doctors. There are of course times when I lift my little ones who are over 20lbs but I am not doing it consecutively or at a fast pace. But I try to only do it when necessary.

Don't let yourself get out of breath

A good rule of thumbs is to not let yourself get too out of breath while working out. Yes, you will be breathing a harder but when you stop you should still be able to talk. The same goes while running. You should be able to talk without deeply huffing and puffing. If you are, then you are going to fast or pushing yourself too hard. I never ever sprint during pregnancy, that is a big no no. If you feel like you are going to pass out after a run or workout you have probably pushed yourself too hard. I have done that a couple times and always freak myself out so I really try not to overdo it.

I have slowed down a considerable amount since before pregnancy. My pace before pregnancy was about 8 1/2 -9 minutes per mile and is now about 10 1/2 -11 now that I am in my 2nd trimester.  I can't physically go any faster so I am fine with my slower pace. I love still being able to get out and move! Once I get to my third trimester I probably won't run at all and slow down to a walk.

Stay hydrated and nourished

It's already so hard for me to remember to drink water so I have to be especially diligent to stay on top of my water intake. I have been keeping tally of how many glasses I drink a day to make sure that I have been getting my daily quota. Make sure to drink water before, during and after working out.  I sometimes workout before eating but I usually eat a protein filled meal or snack right after or space my workout in between meals. I love drinking these protein filled chocolate shakes right after a workout.

How to modify workouts?

I do many of the same exercises I do pre pregnancy but many I have to modify.  I don't really do any ab work. I modify any kind of exercise that calls for jumping. For instance jumping lunges I will just do lunges for and burpees I just stand up instead of jump up.

I don't go to my normal early bootcamp regularly as sleep is a priority for me right now so I have been doing most of my workouts from home when I am able during the day. I love fitness blender! They have so many great diverse workouts with warm ups and cool downs and always include modifications.

How often should you work out?

I try to work out at least 3-4x a week. ( notice the emphasis on try) Sometimes it happens sometimes it doesn't. The main thing is to find out what works best for you. If you feel good working out every day and have the time go for it, if not do what you can.

Warm up and cool down

It's always a good idea to warm up and stretch before any workout and even more so during pregnancy. Your body is stretching and doing all kinds of crazy things so it's best to warm up and stretch your muscles before going into a work out. It's also really good to cool down afterwards and slowly get your heart rate back to normal.

What are the benefits of exercising during pregnancy?

I believe that still making time for myself during pregnancy has been key in keeping me sane and helping me to feel prepared for childbirth. There is no reason that just because you are pregnant you have to lose all your muscle and be a couch potato. Yes, I get tired a lot more easier these days but I always sleep better if I have worked out that day and feel more motivated to get things done after a good workout.

 To recap here are some more reasons to exercise during pregnancy:

*Energizes you
*Helps keep you in shape/not lose all your muscle
*Clears your mind
*Helps you sleep better
*Prepares you for birth
*Helps you get back into shape faster after birth faster
*Shorter labor( I have all very quick births and have worked out right up to birth)
*Helps with constipation;)
*Lowers your risk for gestational diabetes (source)
*Less likely to gain as much weight

I don't always feel like working out normally let alone when I am pregnant but if I make myself do it I am always glad I did and feel better afterwards. I feel strong for the task ahead of me as well as the task in front of me of taking care of my family.

Remember to enjoy this new season of your life. Yes, our bodies are changing but it's for the best possible reason. It's so amazing and beautiful! Always err on the side of being cautious instead of pushing yourself too hard.

Though it might seem like you are pregnant forever, you will have a permanent waddle and that you have gained 100 pounds, it won't last forever and those pounds will eventually come off. Give yourself a lot of grace during this time and do what you feel is best for your body and baby. Don't compare your growing body to other pregnant mamas. Believe me it's inevitable that you will find someone that you think looks way better than you. We all carry our babies differently and were not meant to look all the same.

Embrace this beautiful time and if you are able enjoy the benefits of staying fit and exercising during pregnancy!

Do you exercise during pregnancy?

What do you like to do to stay active during pregnancy?

Do you find it hard to get motivated to exercise during pregnancy?



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First Trimester of Pregnancy Symptoms

Monday, June 27, 2016


I have never understood how there are women who give birth and never even knew they were pregnant. If that was you I am sorry, but it just doesn't make any sense to me. There are so many symptoms that you experience throughout all of pregnancy that would just be abnormal otherwise.

Over the years I have come to be very in tune with my body.  I usually know right away when I am pregnant.  There are so many little tale tell signs that I just can't ignore. I have had a lot of pregnancies so I do know what to look for.

The first thing that always gives it away is a missed period. I am always right on schedule, so to be a few days or a week late is of course a sure sign. I know that there are many though with sporadic periods that would make it hard to know for sure.

Vivid Dreams

Before I took a test I had a feeling I was pregnant because I was having vivid dreams that  I remembered. I hardly ever remember my dreams normally so this did cause me to wonder if I was pregnant.

Fast growing/ healthy nails and hair

I have a bad habit of picking my nails. I don't bite them but it's just as bad. I don't give them that much time to grow. When I am pregnant I can literally feel them growing. I have been really good at leaving them alone lately. My hair has also been looking a lot more healthy and shiny. So that's a big perk for pregnancy.

Break outs

A not so great 1st trimester side effect is breaking out a lot. I have always been prone to breaking out but even more so in my first trimester and during periods. After the 1st trimester my skin always clears up.

Heightened sense of smell

Not only do I smell more strongly than usual but everyone else smells too. When I am in a crowded place all the smells seem to waft to my nose. Perfumes, B.O, stinky feet all smell even stronger. And don't get me started on food. I almost threw up when my husband was cooking fish the first few weeks of my pregnancy, and I love fish!

Bloated Tummy/ swollen breasts

Some women can hide that baby inside them for what seems like months, not me. My tummy pops out right away. I know of course it's not the baby filling me all up but I sure do get bloated. With every baby I seem to show a little earlier. When I start to lose the baby weight, wouldn't you know the first thing to go is my breasts; during pregnancy though they swell up right away.

Weight gain

Not only does my abdomen start to swell but so does everything else.(mainly my hips, thighs and my backside;) I gain a lot of weight in the first trimester. It's like my body starts storing fat in case of a famine. I also get very hangry if I don't eat when I start to feel hungry. I am very blessed to not get very sick during my pregnancies. As long as I eat throughout the day I am pretty much good to go. It's a price I am willing to pay for carrying a new life inside of me;)

Nausea/all times of day

The first trimester is when most women experience nausea. To many unfortunate women it's all of pregnancy. I am one of the lucky few who only get it slightly. In many of my pregnancies I would feel so sick that I wouldn't want to eat and then would throw up at any time of day. There is no such thing as morning sickness. It should be called all day sickness because it can really hit you at any time. Many times I would have to force myself to eat some cheerios or crackers to help stay the nausea.

Insomnia

I usually get insomnia really bad the last month of pregnancy but this pregnancy I got it right away. I would wake up at 3am and couldn't go back to sleep till around 5:( I would try so hard to stay up as late as I could so I wouldn't wake up in the middle of the night. It's so horrible to want to sleep and not be able to.

Tiredness

Insomnia of course leads to me being really tired during the day. On nights when I don't get much sleep I usually try to get a nap in if I can. When I am not pregnant I can't take a nap to save my life. The kids are too noisy, I have too much on my mind to do and I just can't fall asleep, but when I am pregnant all of that goes out the door. The kids will still be noisy and somehow I will just crash and sleep through it all. I love being able to take naps especially when Luke my 2 year old sleeps with me. It's so nice to sleep soundly and deeply! When I don't have insomnia it's hard for me to stay up past 9pm. Try as I might I pass out.

Foggy brain

I have been getting more forgetful over the years but this first trimester I have been really bad; totally forgetting appointments, get togethers and things I was supposed to do. I space out very easily and have to really pay more attention lately. Of course I have a really good excuse for not being all with it. I am growing a life inside of me!!!

Cravings

One of the first things that changes for me with pregnancy is my food cravings. I immediately start craving greasy burgers, french fries and coke, and pizza. I hardly ever drink coke or crave hamburgers but pregnancy changes everything. It seems like a lot of women try to start eating more healthy when they become pregnant; not me. I also just want anything salty like pickles or chips. I always have a sweet tooth but during pregnancy it abandons me, which is probably a good thing since I am eating more fatty foods.

I do crave healthy foods also. I have really been enjoying lots of salads and smoothies lately. In the mornings I usually want some carbs or proteins.

 I have only started drinking coffee regularly this year and really look forward to my morning indulgence but when pregnancy hit, coffee was dead to me. I had no desire whatsoever to drink it.

Constantly having to go potty

These days I have to go to the bathroom constantly. I will go and then have to go five minutes later. I am trying to drink a lot of water but my bladder just can not hold it for very long at all. I always try to be conscious of the nearest bathroom when I am out so I can make a quick escape. Night time is the worst. I get so thirsty so I keep water near my bed but I am up 2 to 3 times.

Emotionalness

All it takes is one sappy or sad scene on t.v. and I am a goner; the tears start flowing and it's hard to stop. I am already a very emotional person, but I am ten times worse during pregnancy.

Indecisiveness

I already have a super hard time making decisions normally but when I am with child it's 10 times worse.  I pretty much just have to pick something and stay with it or I will feel like a yo yo going back and forth between the options.

Feeling Blah/Unmotivated

All the motivation and ambition I usually have goes straight out the window the first trimester. I have to literally force myself off the couch to get anything done.

Excited and Anxious

It's so exciting to think that we are going to have a new little person as a part of our family soon! I often visualize holding that brand new little baby and dreaming about it's sweet newborn smell and all the wonderful things about babies but I also get a little anxious also. I know all too well that things can go wrong during pregnancy and don't want to take for granted that everything will go perfectly. I have really had to give it to God and just trust him with this little life and know that no matter what he is ultimately in control!

As you can see carrying a little life inside of you changes a lot of things but it's absolutely the best reason to go through all these changes and so so worth it!!

For those of you who have been through this I am sure you can relate to some of my symptoms and to those of you who are still waiting for that day to arrive...look how much you have to look forward to!;)

Every woman and pregnancy is different but it just boggles my mind that God created us to grow another human inside of us! It really is such a miracle.

I haven't always embraced all of my pregnancies.  I have often been selfish with my body and disliked all the changes going on, but this pregnancy especially God has given me so much grace and joy in carrying this new life. I have realized anew how it is such a blessing to be pregnant and have a healthy baby. I never want to take it for granted again. Life is the most precious thing on earth and I am so privileged not to have only carried one but now 9 ( 5 live births, 3 miscarriages) little babies inside of me!

Do enjoy being pregnant or struggle with it?

Are you in your first trimester? 

What are some symptoms you have experienced?

Can you relate to any of mine?

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No longer slaves to fear

Tuesday, June 21, 2016


Before I was married I traveled all around the U.S and world with my family and by myself. I never even hesitated once when getting on a car, train, bus or plane. (Well maybe sometimes) I was usually excited and couldn't wait to go on a new adventure. I even lived in Israel for a year and honestly felt so safe there.

After I was married I would ache to go travel somewhere. It was in my blood. I longed to go to new places and meet new people. Over the years I have found contentment in where God has placed me and have become more of a homebody. I would love to travel again someday God willing, but right now I love being with my family in our snug little home.

Recently I had the opportunity to go visit one of my best friends who lives in Georgia. Her sister contacted me and told me she wanted to surprise my friend with a girls weekend and wanted me to come also and surprise her! How fun!

I didn't think I would be able to go because of funds and my husband's work schedule but somehow it all worked out. I knew I needed to take advantage of this open door. Who knew when I would be able to get away like this again?

But once I bought my ticket fear surged through me.

What if something happened to me( or the baby) while traveling? I shouldn't leave my family. We can't afford this right now. I should cancel my flight. I can't do this. I need to stay home with my family where it's safe.

One bad scenario after another kept playing through my mind of what could go wrong. I imagined myself dying in a plane crash or terrorist bombing; leaving my husband with all the kids.

Here I was finally able to go have a relaxing weekend with one of my best friends; something I have always dreamed of doing...and I was scared to death.

I came very close to cancelling my flight, but I knew deep down that I could not give in to fear or else I would always be paralyzed by fear the rest of my life.

There are times when we need to use extreme caution and be aware that of the danger around us; making wise decisions and being sensitive and obedient to God's leading.

 I knew though that in this case I needed to trust the Lord. I needed to face my mortality and know that wherever I am...I am safe in his hands. 

As I got ready to board the plane the song "No longer slaves" by Bethel came to my mind. I quickly downloaded it on to my phone. As we started to take off I played it. As I listened to the powerful lyrics and music tears streamed down my face.

"I'm no longer a slave to fear                      
I am a child of God
I'm no longer a slave to fear 
I am a child of God
I am surrounded by the arms of the Father
I am surrounded by songs of deliverance
We've been liberated from our bondage
We're the sons and the daughters
Let us sing our freedom" Bethel music

 I am a child of God.

 It doesn't matter if I am in the safety of my home or flying thousands of feet in the air...I am not going to die outside God's will and timing. 

I know that I will always remember that moment in my life when I chose to trust the Lord and not give in to fear. I had to admit that I was not in control of everything, but that he was. God revealed himself to me in such a powerful and personal way. I am so thankful how he is gentle with us in our fears and weaknesses.

Though I am a christian it doesn't mean that I don't fear death. I am confident and secure in the hope that I have after death but that doesn't mean that I am not afraid of dying.

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt when my heart stops beating and my soul leaves my body that I will immediately be with the Lord and I will never know fear, death, sickness, pain, sin and tears anymore.  I know it will be glorious beyond what I can hope or imagine. But until then I have to live in my flawed, sinful, mortal body. I have to face the knowledge that I or my loved ones could die any day.

I know my life won't be without fear, but I don't have to live in fear. I can trust that my Savior will not only take me safely to my heavenly home but I can trust that he will keep me safe here on earth until his preordained time for me to leave it.



Are you bound by fear? 

Do you imagine terrible things happening to you and your family?

Do you make decisions based on fear?

 Know that you are not alone, and that you don't have to live in fear. You can trust the perfect one who made you. No matter what situation or circumstances you face; God is ultimately in control.

Whatever the outcome; whether good or bad we can trust his sovereign will. His ways are far above our ways. He sees far beyond what we can and knows what is best for us. Even if it does mean death or sickness.

Of course while I was gone there were the horrific shootings in Orlando at the gay nightclub and of the beautiful and talented Christian singer Christina Grimmie.( Who was killed by someone from my hometown:( SO SAD AND POINTLESS!!!

Despite these terrible and fearful times, I ended up having a great time with my friend. I was so blessed to go to my friend's church and guess what? They played "No longer slaves"!! I just love when God confirms his truth to me! And you know what? I made it safely back to my family. I still was looking around the airport for suspicious characters and tried to avoid crowds but I put one foot in front of the other and didn't let fear overcome me.

We live in an evil and sinful world. There is no way that we are going to be able to hide from it. But we can trust the one who is making all things new.

Whatever fear you are facing I pray that you will not give into those but rather give them to the one who holds our lives in his hands!

I want to leave you with this beautiful and powerful song. I pray it ministers to you as it did to me.





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